A Nice Friday

Hey!!! Ngepost lagi nih gue, gue hari ini sekolah. Gue sekolah seperti biasa dari jam 7, sampai jam 11.30. Hari ini gue cuma ada pelajaran Bahasa Inggris dan juga Matematika.

Bahasa Inggris: Exercise, soal ulum taun lalu
Matematika: Ulangan Harian Ke-2

Bahasa Inggris--> gue oke-oke aja. 1/25 soal
Matematika--> berapa soal ya... 14 kalo gue nggak salah, gue ragu 2 soal di pilihan ganda, semoga aja sih bener

Start:
Dimulai gue dateng pagi, ke kelas, dan langsung ke lantai 2, i met my girls and we talked a lot. gue bareng sama Tia ke lantai 2 nya. Pas gue balik ke kelas, si Farah udah ancang-ancang buat dengerin cerita gue, gue cerita banyak banget dari yang namanya masalah lovelife, lingkungan keluarga, sampe hal yang.... so private, cuma dia yang tau masalah gue. Huhh just keep it, girl...

Beberapa jam berlalu, termasuk pelajaran Bahasa Inggris. Matematika dimulai, kertas ulangan dibagikan. Bab Prism and Pyramid diuji, dan gue kesulitan buat ngejawab nomor 4 dan 5 romawi 1. Romawi 2 alias essay, Amin, gue bisa semuanya. tinggal tunggu nilai deh nih hehe. Abis itu gue keluar, gue orang ke dua yang nyelesain ulangan, Sule orang pertama. It didn't take time, mereka mulai selesai satu per-satu, dan Tia sama Vera pun nyusul gue yang udah ngarah ke lapangan buat main bola kirainnnn. eh ujungnya cuma gue yang mainnn, serasa gahoelllll ;p buehehe. Bel pulang sekolah bunyi........

TRALALA TRILILI BLAH BLAH BLAH~~~~

Gue pulang ke rumah Tia bareng Vera soalnya nyokap gue mau jemput disana. Sampai disana, gue Tia sama Vera masuk ke kamar Tia, disusul sama Mbak Hilda. Kita ngobrol-ngobrol sebentar sampe akhirnya nyokap gue nelfon, nanyain gue dimana. Ternyata nyokap gue udah di depan rumah Tia. Gue ganti baju sebentar, terus gue ke depan dan berangkat deh ke Grand Indonesia.

Eit tunggu dulu, nyokap gue so smaaart! Ternyata beliau cuma nyuruh supir gue ngdrop gue, Joanna, Josi di Halte Busway deket Alpus. Dari situ kita naik bus wayyy, haha udah lama deh, terakhir sih pas gue ke Dufan sama anak-anak. Kita turun di Bunderan HI, nyebrang ke Plaza Indonesia, dan we walked after we reached The East Mall Main Gate. we entered and we took a walk, nggak lama kemudian, nyokap gue ke Clarks. yaudah gue ngikut, we bought 3 pasang sepatu. yeah, ada deh di Clarks ya sepatunya wedges gitu tapi lucu deh suer. Harganya juga lucu 1,5juta. HAHAHA nggak jadi deh, rugi amet enyak gue beliin buat gue kan. Abis itu gue minta ke Food Louvr gue mau mamam PizzaBar soalnya hehe. Abis gue &fam dapet tempat duduk, gue suruh adek-adek gue jagain tempat, gue beliin mereka makanan, pada mau KFC. Joanna: Oriental Bento. Josi: Crispy Fried Chicken with spicy sensation. Gue.... gue bingung tadinya gue suka banget makanan yang pasta-pasta gitu hue Lasagna sama Baked Macaroni terutama, Pizza also. Yaudah deh gue milih Pizza aja sama Caramel Machiato, nyokap gue nggak taunya nyusulin gue gitu, abis order gue jadi, gue balik ke meja sementara nyokap gue masih di tempat itu.

NGGAK TAUNYA... nyokap gue bawa 4 boxes PizzaBar gitu
1. Smoked Beef Pizza
2.Sausage Pizza
3. Macaroni
4. Lasagna

HUAHAHA yang nomor 1, nykp gue makan. Nomor 2-4 ya buat di rumah. Abis itu gue &fam ke Blitzmegaplex buat nonton Night At The Museum II, beli ticket dan......... jam 14.30 gue sama fam nonton. Those movie i recommend it to y'all. It's funny. Selesai nonton jam berapa gue lupa, gue sama adek gue, Joanna, ke ZARA, windowshopping sambil nunggu nyokap sama Josi ke Gramedia. Ntar deh nih liburan gue bales dendam bareng Joanna, pembantaian money deh sama Daddy ya huehehe. Segini aja deh tangan gue udah pegel. Okayyyyy, take care <3

Yesterday - Thursday

I'm back, gangguan itu gue anggep angin gue masih ngepost aja biarpun di blg, all a lie, HAHAHA. Kamis kemaren seru di kelas, hueee gue lupa ada apa aja tapi yang pasti seru. apalagi bagian Bilingual Zoo. yoi banget, kita teriak2 norak gitu kayak di kebun binatang, ada yang niru suara monyet, ada yang niru suara....... ah nggak tau deh. Banyak. yang lebih gue suka waktu Aldwin teriak dengan ekspresi yang sooooo-woman. gila abissss ngakak 1 kelas deh. sampe akhirnya di marahin sama Pak..... nggak tau namanya siapa, dimarahin gitu dan ternyata ada 9 anak yang teriak-teriak yang cewe nya cuma gue sama Vera haha, it was fun anyway busway (komentar lageee). Abis itu kita juga latian upacara sekelas, kocak banget deh masih pada ngaco. Gue jadi pembaca Janji Siswa, wohooo hari Senin besok, doain ya semoga kelas gue sukses.

Sehabis pulang sekolah gue dijemput bokap sama nyokap untuk ke RS MMC, setelah sekian lama, gue kesana lagi............... gue kesana buat periksa pembengkakan yang ada di rahang bawah dalem mulut gue, ada kaitannya sama yang pernah dioperasi dulu apa engga. gue ngeyakinin aja everything will be just fine!!! Setelah periksa, gue disuruh dokter untuk foto panoramic mulut bagian dalem, yup, gue di foto dan hari Sabtu besok gue mesti ke MMC lagi. Sepulang dari MMC gue sama bokap nyokap ke Blok M Plaza untuk nemenin my parentsss ketemu sama calon pembeli rumah gue, bukan rumah tinggal loh, i'm not going to move. Dari situ jam 8 terus balik ke rumah dengan selamat sentosa. Nggak lupa ngambil bday cake nya Joanna loh heheh. ah udah dulu ya guys, see yaaa ,xo

Once Again

hey there bloggy, sekali lagi ya. i rule here...

gue rasa pemilik blog boleh nulis apa aja kan? except SARA? kalo reader sekalian nggak suka sama blog gue,just keep it, belum tentu orang lain merasa juga kan? mau bilang gue boong ato apa kek, norak najis dan ngaco, itu hak lo. mau bilang blog gue bagus juga itu hak lo. bebas disini, termasuk ngepost POSTING. okay guys. gue yang nulis gue yang tau, mau gue nulis abstrak kea gimana juga, mau mau gue. kalian juga blogger pasti numpahin perasaan ke posting, gue nggak punya hak untuk bilang post yang ini begini, begitu apa segala macem, gue rasa nggak ada gunanya juga kecuali cari musuh. okeee deh, gue cuma 14 taun, anak ingusan kali ya kalo yang baca udah SMA ato kuliah. tapi tolong hargain apa yang gue tulis, biarpun lo nggak suka, yang gue tulis nggak nyinggung lo kan? coba mikir lebih baik lagi deh. post ini bawa santai aja, ini gue konfirmasi gue attach ke semua posting gue. kalo nggak suka blog gue, anggep aja sebagai thread, beralih lah ke page lain. take your ride, and byeee

My First Surgery

Gue mau cerita tentang judulnya lah, operasi. Yoi abiezzzz kan!? Dulu gue pernah operasi gitu deh, operasi…… gue cerita aja deh ya biar jelas.

Waktu itu gue kelas 6SD dan akhirnya gue sama temen-temen gue LULUS. Kita pengumuman di AULA SMP, bareng guru-guru dan juga orang tua. YEAH!!! Nilai kamu memuaskan doong. Itu tanggal 16 Juni 2007. Gue bakal ngejalanin operasi tanggal 20 Juni 2007.

Operasi apakah itu? Gue operasi kista mungkin ya namanya, dia ada di tengah-tengah rahang bawah gue. Gue sama orang tua gue udah dari sebelumnya kita nyari rumah sakit yang cocok buat operasi, kita ke RSIB, ke RSPI, RS Pertamina, sama apa lagi ya…. Gua nggak tau. Sampe akhirnya kita ke pusat rumah sakit di seluruh pelosok Indonesia, RS Cipto Mangunkusumo. Dari awal sampai detik-detik pembedahan yang tim bedah tau adalah penyumbatan kelenjar saliva. Tapi coba kita liat cerita nya

Tanggal 19 Juni 2007, gue ke check in ke kamar rumah sakit, kamar Mawar ruangan 13. Beh ngeliat angkanya aja gue serem, tapi… 13 itu angka kuat loh. Abis itu gue ngejalanin hari dengan biasa aja, sampe gue check kesehatan dan allergy.

Tanggal 20 Juni 2007, pagi-pagi gue harus puasa, terakhir makan tuh kurang dari jam 8 malem. Gila nggak sih lo. Gue pindah kasur untuk di bawa ke ruang operasi, sebelum masuk gue sama nyokap&bokap gue berdoa bareng. Kalo gue boleh jujur, gue takut banget waktu itu, gue komat-kamit mulu berdoa, takut nggak balik lagi hehehe. Di samping nyokap gue ada anak kecil yang telinganya kemasukan cotton bud gila nggak, amit-amit adoooh. Abis disitu gue masuk, gue ganti baju operasi, ternyata ada juga orang yang mau dioperasi, Di dalem ruang ganti itu ada beberapa kasur untuk orang yang bakal dioperasi dan untuk orang yang udah dioperasi, di sebelahnya ada pintu untuk ke koridor yang berisikan pintu-pintu menuju banyak ruangan pembedahan. Di dalem situ dingin dan nggak berisik hihi. Abis itu gue jalan ke ruangan dimana gue bakal dibedah……..

Di dalem situ, yang pasti dingin dan steril. Ada beberapa dokter yang nanangin gue, gue lupa deh ada dokter senior yang jadi pimpinannya. Gue disuruh tiduran di kasur yang dingin juga, dan gue dikasih obat bius lewat infuse, begitu juga nafas, gue di kasih masker yang ada pembiusnya, terakhr yang gue inget sebelum gue tepar adalah….. doker bilang “coba tidur nya naikan lagi” abis itu gue udah nggak inget apalagi. Operasinya berjalan 2 jam kalo nggak salah, mulut gue dikasih penyangga untuk tetep kebuka sampe ujung bibir gue pada kering dan luka. Pembedahan dilakukan lewat dalem mulut, soalnya kalo dari rahan bawah bagian luar untuk estetika pasti jelek. Dan ternyata berhasil, gue mulai sadar dari pengaruh bius dengan tampon yang ada di dalem mulut gue, berdaraht terus, bahkan pipi sama bantal gue pun penuh dengan darah dari mulut gue. Selama beberapa lama, mulut gue terus ngeluarin darah, dan gue juga diharusin kumur-kumur pada Betadine Mouth Wash.

Tanggal 21 Juni 2007, gue cek kesehatan terakhir dan udah boleh pulang. Gue seneng banget, gue pun udah bisa bicara pelan-pelan, tapi…. Belom bisa makan. Sampai di rumah gue langsung online Friendster haha please deh jamannya kan dulu. Gue sambil telfonan sama temen-temen gue ceritain apa yang gue alamin. Sampai nggak di sangka, lidah gue malah bengkak, sakit banget, sakit!!! Bahkan painkiller yang dokter kasih pun nggak ada gunanya, gue nggak bisa bicara, makan, dan minum. Tersiksa banget. Akhirnya gue di bawa ke MMC: Metropolitan Medical Centre yang ada di Kuningan, dimana dokter senior ketua tim bedah gue juga tugas. Gue kesana dan di rawat lagi, gue di infuse karena takutnya dehidrasi badan gue lemes banget. Gue di rawat di ruang 213 kalo nggak salah, bareng sama beberapa orang yang juga pasca-operasi, gue ditanganin sama Suster Ambar dan… suster siapa satu lagi gue lupa, mereka baik dan ramah buset deh ya. Dokter dateng dan dia bilang itu Cuma karena gue takut ngeluarin lidah dan takut buat ngegunain itu dengan fungsi biasa, beh sakit banget mana lukanya kan belum kering. Tanggal 24 Juni 2007, gue masih belom bisa ngomong normal, makan pun mati-matian, gue nelfon Maya buat cerita. Dan tiba-tiba tanggal 25 Juni 2007 begitu bangun pagi, gue udah disodori sarapan yang lumayan yummy untuk ukuran gue yang nggak bisa mamam, gue makan pelan-pelan dannnn gue BISA!!! Gue masih harus tinggal 1 hari lagi disana, yuhu gue seneng-seneng aja tuh soalnya ternyata ibu-ibu yang abis operasi itu juga ramah banget sama gue, bahkan keluarga mereka pun ikut ngobrol sama gue plus keluarga gue. Hahhh seneng deh, tanggal 26 Juni 2007 gue mesti pulang, malem malem gue check out dan pamit sama 1 orang ibu yang ada di samping gue. Say bye, dan sama suster juga say bye. WOW! Kangen juga loh sama susternya. Karena tragedy itu berat badan gue sampe turun 4kilo dan gue juga jadi cadel wakwak, kocak deh. Thanks God, for those interesting experience ;)

Thanks again for the readers, for RSCM and MMC, Suster Ambar juga ;p

Byeee,

When your emotion's out of control

1. Don’t drive

Soalnya waktu emosi lo lagi nggak ke control (mood lo berantakan) biasanya nyetir pun jadi nggak karuan, bawaannya kesel pengen ngebut terus, ato lo jadi nggak konsentrasi sama keadaan di jalan. Mending kalo lo bisa ngendaliin, kalo enggak? Brabe kan tiba-tiba ada apa-apa Cuma gara-gara emosi lo nggak bisa dikendaliin

2. Friends?

Boleh lo cerita sama temen, tapi lo tenangin diri lo dulu. Nggak nutup kemungkinan lo malah jadi marah-marah sama dia, waktu lo lagi sharing sama temen lo, karena mungkin waktu dia ngomong sesuatu atau kasih nasehat lo malah nganggep itu mojokin lo, seakan kayak nggak niat denger cerita lo. Namanya juga lagi emosi kan. Kalo misalnya temen lo minta lo dengerin curhat dia, mungkin lebih baik gak usah maksain, lo tolak ajakan dia baik-baik

3. Don’t eat

When your anger can’t be controlled, keanya pengen ngehajar apaaaa aja yang ada termasuk makanan. Hm habislah kalo lo banyak ngemil yang nggak sehat. Kalo lo ngehajar nya buah sih nggak apa-apa. Tapi kalo snack-snack ber-MSG ato goring-gorengan? Jangan deh, itung-itung lo nggak nambah masalah kesehatan. Cukup lah marah-marah

Gue orangnya agak susah ngendaliin emosi huaha, kadang Safari bisa keluar dari mulut gue kalo lagi marah, udah dosa, jadi ngeselin pula. Mending coba car ague ngedinginin kepala ye guys, ini Cuma sharing.

· Listen to music

Yang gue maksut disini bukan music yang harcore, screamo, punk, emo, dan semuanya yang lyrics nya showing anger, hatred sama broken heart. Mending coba lagu-lagu mellow yang catchy sama punya lyric yang happy, bernada ringan. Biasa nya feel lo lagi kebawa lagu, if you want to try another genre from mellow coba lo denger yang up-beat, afro-beat gitu, ato yang ada distorsinya maksut gue… lagu dugem *YEAH* lagu yang ngebuat feel lo jadi lepas, sekalian aja lo nari loncat-loncat, sambil ngaca terus lipsing kalo ada lyricsnya. Etdeh gue banget deh sambil nyoba gaya gayanya rock star gitu HUAHAHA. Percaya deh it works.

· Watch Movies

Cara ampuh gue yang ini selalu berhasil, coba deh nonton film nya jangan yang perang-perang gitu, terus yang tentang revenge sama sedih jangan dulu deh. Coba nonton katun, ato film yang bergenre drama-komedi, action-komedi, semua yang ada komedinya. Kayak Yes Man, Night At The Museum ato Journey At The Center Of The World, ya….. kayak yang adventurous tp berunsur comedy lah.

· Browsing

Browsing clothing line gitu gitu juga asik loh, liat yang lagi lucu-lucu aja cuci mata, terhibur deh pasti, liat aja apparel di season nya lagi in sama yang udah out. Nggak ada salahnya. Ato mungkin browsing article article yang inspriring dan blog walking. Lo juga bisa cerita di blog lo, if you have one, tapi inget jangan terlalu di umbar yaa. Huehehe

· Wash Your Face and Take A Deep Breath

Ini simple banget emang tapi mesti deh ngaruh, biasanya sih lo jadi agak tenang kalo kayak gini. Baru deh lo lanjutin kegiatan lain untuk ngelampiasin kemarahan lo.

· Hang Out

Begitu lo udah agak tenang, lo coba deh contact temen lo, secara lo lagi suntuk lo ajak jalan aja, ajak nongkrong lah, lo mau makan kek, main ato cuci mata sama cuwo cuwo hawt ;p ato cewe-cewe catchy, it’s okay lah, tapi batas normal. Sekalian window shopping, siapa tau lagi ada sale, bisa kaleee di coba. Bisa juga ngopy sambil wi-fian ato foto-foto sm tmn lo pake webcam, ato ya shisha lah separah-parahnya. No drinking ya, jangan sampe deh lo drunk Cuma gara-gara kesel, kagak jaman boy.

· Olah Raga

Ini juga ampuh, lo coba lari keliling komplek ato boxing. Salurin ke situ aja, mending lo kurus tenaga dengan olah raga daripada marah-marah jadi cepet tua loccc. Lari secepet yang lo bisa, sambil bawa anjing lo lari, serasa bule deh cuy. Kalo boxing, ya tonjok aja semau lo, sampe lo capek nggak papa deh tangan lo bakal lebih kenceng dan berotot!!!! Kalo marah-marah muka lo jadi cepet tua loh karena memakai 24 atau sekitar 27 otot di sekitar muka waktu marah.

Oki deh people, ini sharing gue aja yah aha semoga bermanfaat. Gue juga masih belajar ngendaliin emosi. Btw, Avatar The Legend Of Aang The book of Fire, ending nya COOL wkwk, okay deh byebyeee <3

Gue kangen sama BALI TRIP! Waktu gue pertukaran pelajar sama temen-temen sekolah dan guru-guru. HUHU~~~~ Inget banget gue disana seru banget biarpun cuma sama mereka. Tapi banyak hal baru yang gue temuin disana. Momey Dadda cmon can we go to Bali again? Anyway katanya sih 6 anak yang waktu itu pertukaran pelajar ke BALI bakal dapet kesempatan buat pertukaran pelajar ke AUSSIE kalo jadi. Doain gue ya bloggy! Thanks guys for visiting ;))

Words of the day

Sometimes promise’s just words covered with lie and smells like future

But keep your eyes open

Time will bring the truth to your eyes

Words of the day

In Life:

You must have guts to take risks hidden in-front

Repost: Haters make me famous

Title ini gue dapet dari posting seorang blogger yang blog nya inspiring banget. Gue bakal post link nya ke lo semua later. Title nya sih bener, dan gue rasa HATERS do make us famous. Gue bingung deh banyak orang yang suka ngomongin orang di belakang dengan tameng super baik dan juga di dunia maya. Apalagi dengan SARA dan apalagi yang paling ampuh itu sindiran. Mygosh or my guts!!! Gue kadang suka sharing ke beberapa temen gue dan itu sekedar sharing nggak ada yang lain, kayak ngejelekin atopun ngerendahin orang yang gue omongin itu, omongan gue kan dari sudut pandang gue gitu. Gue juga tau sih banyak orang ya some of my “friends” yang suka ngejelekin gue dibelakang biarpun gue nggak ngejelekin dia sekalipun or I don’t have any problem with them.

Bahkan ada yang ngebawa temen gue juga dan banyak case lain contohnya: dulu ada yang ngomongin gue karena gue menaruh simpati sama seorang cheerleader, dulu ada yang ngajak gue ribut Cuma gara-gara hal yang nggak certain bener apa enggak, terus ada juga ya dulu sebel sama gue yang sekarang jadi temen gue, ada juga yang ngomongin gue cuma karena masalah yang norce bgt dan BANYAK kasus aneh lain. Aduh makasih ya gue serasa artis dapet gossip jelek dan caci maki karena lo semua.

Kata orang: kalo lo mau mempersalahkan profile orang ato sifat orang (yang mungkin aja salah dari perspective lo, coba lo introspeksi dulu. Apa lo udah sebaik itu? Kalo lo emang udah sebaik itu, pasti ada lagi yang lebih baik dari lo. Ada yang di atas lo lebih jauh lagi. Dan nggak nutup kemungkinan kok kalo itu malah jadi senjata balik. Selamat deh buat my haters, udah dapet topic buat diomongin wkwkwk. Haters do have haters, jangan kira haters nggak ada yang be-fuckin-hated juga yaa. Mereka cukup lovable kok dengan hal itu. Ngebaca posting blogger itu, ngebuat gue santai aja nanggepinnya. Gue jadi buka mata emang sudut pandang orang ke kita itu kadang beda sama apa yang kita tau tentang diri sendiri. Then, about forgiving, beware of fakers, kadang senjatanya suka nggak ketauan loh. Oh iya “cuy” temen sesekolah sama lo juga menscandal kan elu kok, ga terkecuali kakak kelas your favorite guys. Sekarang ya sekarang, dulu ya dulu. Ternyata dulu sama sekarang bakal tetep sama aja. Kalo gue punya salah, gue rasa lo nggak pernah bilang sama gue. Dan itu Cuma gara-gara gue ngasih simpati atas “gaya” orang yang lo HOLIC-in dan gue kira kayaknya semua udah baik-baik aja, ternyata masih kesel sama gue toh, Yowes ora opo, maaf ya kalo gue ada salah apa, tapi jangan lah menyulut api, I like fire. Hail “Haters make me famous”

Adowwwh kowwl abiezzz dec ya temenan nya sama boysschool holic. Eh kan ada yang ngatain gue (biarpun nggak kenal) sh*t d*ck b*tch gitu cuma gara-gara gue punya temen di sebuah SMA homogen, terus gue cerita ke temen gue yang sekolah disitu yang sekarang AMIN mau lulus dr situ, kata temen gue “dimana mana net, kalo ada yang boysshool-holic, dimata temen-temen gue mah jijik, najis” AHAHAHA ternyata itu confession mereka. Selamat (tambah) benci sama gue ya girls.

Then kalo you guys, udah baca post gue thanks ya udah mau visit hueee. Kalo lo ngerasa non-hater, non-faker dan sebaiknya abaikan thread ini. Kalo lo merasa kesel dan tersindir, sorry bloggers and readers, these are my trash, and I need to throw it away. Jadi bawa santai kayak di pantai aja boy. Bye~~

Love Them While You Have The Cha

…And how to be the wisest beau

Beberapa hari yang lalu, gue kesel sama pacar gue okay, terus gue mikir sebijak mungkin, gue juga dapet masalah, dan GUE GAK BISA cerita, gue Cuma nelfon Marsha, gue ngebaca sesuatu yang deep-down-to-heart. Gue ngeliat yang “agak beda sama gue”, yoi gue agak stuck di situ. Marsha juga. Terus judulnya? Kenapa mesti Love them while you have the chance, DUDE! Selain gue nggak ada topik, gue mau sok wise lady disini wkwkw. Terus, ini biar lo pada mikir aja sih kalo mau cepet-cepet putus sama pacar lo atau nyia-nyiain pacar lo. Kenapa? Lo gak tau kan lo bakal nyesel apa enggak di hari ke depan dan bakal dapet kesempatan yang sama nggak lo? Lo nggak tau kan? Yaudah lah. Do as what my title says.

Contohnya aja ya, DULU, DULU ya!? Gue pernah nyesel putus sama mantan gue. Dan, what nying!!!! Dulu rasanya nyesel nya naujubileh, ampon bang. Nyesek nggak karuan, serasa “ah bego”, “ah shit”, “ah tolol dulu gue gini”, semua emosi lo campur dari satu. *apa yang gue tulis taken from my perspective*. Jujur aja dulu gue kayak gitu, malah gue sampe lupa makan hahaha, gue mikir mulu, tiduran sambil dengerin lagu, ol terus sampe tagihan jebol, malah sampe sakit, pucet, rasa nya pengen ngulang semua. Gue stuck disitu sampe nggak mikirin keadaan sekitar, dan mulai egois. Padahal, kalo di liat, mungkin gue DULU yang salah dan egois, suka maksa, dan semua nya harus ngikut plot gue. Gue juga gak ada dewasa-dewasa nya. Semua hal yang dulu pernah kejadian, masuk ke otak gue lagi. STRES berat! Gue ngerasa kenapa nggak dari dulu aja sih kayak gini, kenapa baru tau sekarang, kenapa gue dulu begini begitu kayak gini kayak gitu, banyak banget pertanyaan yang gue tanyain ke diri gue sendiri. Siapa yang salah dulu? Gue atau dia. Jawabannya sih emang nggak ketemu, tapi gue yakin sih nggak ada yang salah, itu tergantung dari sudut pandang mana. THEN, gue nggak seharusnya nyeselin apa yang udah kejadian, mungkin gue emang pernah salah nyia-nyiain apa yang udah gue dapet.

THE MAIN:::

BELIEVE IT! setiap lo ada masalah sama pacar lo, jangan egois. Jangan mikirin, dia yang kayak gini, berarti dia yang harus minta maaf, gue yang salah tapi gengsi, dia yang kayak gitu berarti itu mau dia, dia bilang gitu berarti itu maksut dia. Yang ada di pikiran lo belum tentu sama kayak apa yang di otak pacar lo kan? Ngertiin dia juga lah, mungkin dia juga mikir “kenapa sih dia egois bgt blablabla”. You’ll never know if you never try to find out. Coba lo lebih sabar, dan nggak ngelakuin verbal abuse ke dia, atopun men-judge dia dengan hal yang mojokin dia. Buat dia seseneng mungkin tanpa ngelupain HAK lo. Selama lo masih bisa, kenapa enggak? Kenapa mesti egois?

Minta maaf emang nggak gampang. Tapi pikir positive lah, pertama pacar lo pasti makin sayang:p HAHA. Kedua, hubungan lo nggak akan di dominasi sama 1 orang aja Cuma gara2 masalah yang gak selesai dan mendem. Ketiga, lo nggak bakal nyesel nantinya kalo emang tiba-tiba dia nggak ada sama lo, karena lo udah kasih yang terbaik.

Sekarang gue sama si oon sih, ya gitu ngocol-ngocolan najis deh autis banget kayak nggak pacaran. Tapi itu seru nya dong huahaua. Jadi ya selama lo masih bisa, seneng-seneng aja. Nikmatin dulu, gausah mikirin masa depan. Pikirin yang jadi tanggung jawab lo, tapi jangan mau sampe di manfaatin. Okay. Love them while you can, don’t waste the time and the chance ;3

Thanks for reading. Semoga bisa jadi pelajaran ya buat elu yang pernah nyesel biar nggak jatoh lagi. Pelajaran juga buat yang belom bisa ngontrol emosi wkwkw;ppp Take care.

This is my favorite quote:

“If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. And if they don’t, they never were”

-Kahlil Gibran-

This Is Where I Put My Words

Here, I wanna talk about the title, yep yep, it’s true. Sometimes family fights and sometimes it’s hard to forgive. But friends? We fight we love. It’s harder to hate em, I mean the closest one.

I’ ve a closest friend, she’s also my far-away cousin. She’s now happy with her boyfriend, not like yesterday rite girl? She’s Marsha Anne Tabitha Sondakh. Gue udah kenal sama dia kelas 2 SD waktu gue masih di Penabur Bintaro, tapi waktu itu impression gue ke Marsha tuh jelek banget, gue sama Marsha juga dulu ngocol-ngocolan huehue (remember mar?). Sampe akhirnya Marsha pindah ke Africa untuk ikut bokap nya, balik ke sini kelas 5 dan sekolah di TI, waktu lulus SD dan mulai lah kita SMP, gue ketemu lagi sama Marsha. Yoi deh, gue sama Marsha kea ngobrol-ngobrol gitu “kapan lo balik ke sini” ,blablabla…. Abis itu gue sama Marsha jadi deket gitu gue sering cerita tentang mantan gue lah waktu itu kan masalahan mulu cerita nya ke Marsha juga. Yaudah deh jadi deket, gue pertama tuh ya ke rumah Maya terus Marsha gatau kan rumahnya dimana, yaudah rumah Maya daerah Multiplus sector 5, dari situ gue jalan ke Bintaro Plaza sector 5, gue lupa deh Maya sama Bernando ikut apa engga. Gue jalan buat jemput Marsha yang nunggu di Toys City. Itu pas kelas 7 men, gila ye. Soalnya kan rumah Marsha deket BP hue, gue jadi sering ke rumah Marsha terus ke BP. My momey sama daddy jg taunya “ntr jemput janet di rumah marsha” “lagi di rumah marsha” “jalan sama marsha” ah dikit-dikit rmh Marsha, gue juga pernah nemenin Marsha ke rumah omanya sampe di marahin bokap, malah sempet nemenin dia les piano hehehe, Facebook Marsha juga gue buatin, malah double date juga sama dia, gue sama Marsha juga kadang suka sehati gitu ya kalo jalan kadang pikiran nya sama mau pake apa, orang yang kita sebel juga sama, gue sama Marsha juga punya buka diary bareng. Resolusi gue dari alay ke sekarang ini juga bareng Marsha IYEAH!!!.Pas liburan kenaikan kelas 7 (ke kelas 8) aja gue 1,5 minggu main sama dia mulu, sampe nginep, dr pagi sampe malem mulu, wohooo how cool. Tante gue bilang gue sama Marsha kea kembar, dan yoi deh banyak yg bilang mirip. Bedanya, gue item Marsha putih, gue tinggi dia lebih pendek dr gue :ppp sama-sama hyper sama-sama ngocol. Gue sempet RENGGANG sama Marsha, rengga nya udah taraf BANGET, kalo ketemu tuh ga ada nyapa deh ga ada bicara ato pun ngomong malah gue jg ga ke rumah dia lagi. Gila deh emang, y ague sama Marsha sama-sama sadar ya kita kea ga kenal, dan naujubileh deh, ya mungkin gue sm dia udh jrg ketemu jrg contact dan temen Marsha gak cuma gue doang.I hope we can be forever like yesterday gitu loh Marsh c: gue denger katanya Marsha bakal pindah ke America ya I don’t know kapan, dan gue harus mesti dan bakal nyusul. Semoga lo gak pindah juga sih Mar kasian kan ur VFD ur Krimno and Me ;)) and ur boyfriend!!! Hm kan gak tega kan, yauda gausah amrik amrik lah, indo dulu aja sekarang hue. Ntar gue kalo ngabur dr BP kemana kalo ga ke rumah lu? Lil party di kamar lo ga bisa sering2 dong? Stay here aja okayyy. Yep lanjut, banyak loh yang udah gue lewatin sama Marsha. Hm dulu aja pas gue jadian Maret, April nya dia jadian, pas Mei dia putus, gue putus juga. Mantan dia sm mantan gue jg temenan, tmn2 mantan gue jg tmn gue sm Marsha. Woho, emang sama ga sih. Marsha’s well-known by my parents, and her parents know me. Gue juga banyak curhat tentang masalah keluarga ataupun lovelife ke dia. So far… So good. Dia bisa jadi listener gue, waktu gue nangis banget, waktu gue marah dan waktu gue seneng. Thankiss. Okay deh kalo gue tulis keanya kebanyakan juga pasti hihi. Lurv u Mawrz.

Well, she’s not the only one, there are Maya Martha, Irma Christine and Priscilla Natasha. But she’s the one who’s got the face of me :pppp

Not Everything

Pernah nggak lo kesel sama apa yang nggak bisa lo dapetin? PERNAH doong. It’s so human, guys.

Gue lagi kesel abisnya. Nggak usah lah lo ngebicarain ato ngejudge sesuatu apapun itu dari sudut pandang lo sendiri, percuma!!! Nggak bakal selesai nying. Lo bilang “ya lo gini gitu blah” mungkin dari sudut pandang orang lain “lo yang kayak gini, kenapa masih nyalahin gue, nggak sadar lagi blah” BANYAK kemungkinannya. Kapan selesainya lo kalo dalem suatu masalah nggak mau disalahin, kalo kea gitu mah nggak usah hypo, nggak usah minta maaf dsb. Kata guru BK gue waktu SD: “kalo lo liat sebuah dadu dari sisi kanan, dan temen lo liat dari sebelah kiri? Bakal beda kana pa yang di liat, dots yang ada di sisi itu satu sama lain beda,” jadi lo nggak bisa nyelesaiin masalah dengan cara so-in-the-box, pemikiran lo bisa lebih dewasa ao childish, nggak usah saling nyalahin dan mem-per-ke-ruh keadaan dengan ngerubah situasi. Cukup in-tro-spek-si, bener nggak gue gini bener nggak gue gitu. Jangan salah tafsir ya,

Daripada lo susah mikir, mendingan yaudahlah men tenangin diri aja. Jangan malah maksain kalo emang lo lagi bête dan feel lo lagi nggak banget. Gue ngambil positif nya aja, sekarang jadi tau gue kalo masalah emang nggak bisa diselesaiin dari satu pihak, dan nggak bisa Cuma satu pihak yang mendominasi, seakan-akan dia yang bener, nggak semuanya nyet. Kita mikir sok bijak aja ya disini *huahah* kalo lo mau cepet selesai sama masalah yang lo punya, jangan memperkeruh keadaan biarpun lo nggak sadar ya, coba pelan-pelan lo ngalah. You bow to raise!!!! Gue rasa cukup ye nulisnya, semoga kita semua jadi tambah nggak egois dan dewasa.

Good Charlotte: Where would we be now baby?

Me: No Where.

F! ♡

Friends so fucking fun. F isn’t too bad. Yeah hit it, Jan.

Yang namanya temen pasti deh nggak ada mati nya. Kea temen kecil gue yang sekarang udah nggak ada karena kanker darah, tetep aja masih gue inget. Bahkan muka adek gue waktu kecil mirip sama Metta (her name). Kadang gue mikir, kalo Metta masih idup pasti udah segede adek gue ya, hah biar cuma ngayal, nggak papa lah. Terus sahabat kecil gue yang pindah ke Inggris yang sekarang netep di Aussie, gue lost contact tp inget banget gue nying, waktu TK gue main sama dia, Tania’s her name. Sahabat gue waktu SD, namanya Faldi. Dia pindah ke… daerah pasar Minggu waktu kita SD kelas 3. Gue juga udah lost contact. Gue punya banyak temen lama yang udah nggak tau kemana, tapi gue masih berharap sih bisa ketemu lagi. Sekarang kan udah ada Facebook sama MSN haha. Sahabat gue waktu di Playgroup… namanya… shit, gue lupa. Yang gue denger dia pindah ke luar negeri juga, dan tanpa gue tau. AHHH kangen juga ya sama masa kecil dan temen-temennya dong. Ah done with past trading, bye guys. Just rmmbr, Friends are Forever--- momentary!

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"red smokey maiden"

"lovely arabian fellas"

"indian girl, head band and the light"


marsha&jose 1 month:

"together as always"



"she hugs he loves"

Sency - Angels & Demons

hey yaw there bloggy, i was going with my friend to sency last sunday. gue ke sency siang gitu jam 1an,abis dari situ gue makan dulu kan ke food court, but we bought the ticket first. and after we ate we talked a lil and we walked around sency, hufff, and in 14.45 the movie began, we watched Angels and Demons *RECOMMENDED* you'll like it, seriously. Watch it! The plot can't be read and determined, so tricky. The movies finished at 4pm i guess, i just forgot. and we went to Kota, hahaa temen gue ngajak keliling kota gitulah muter, kata nya jarang2 kan gue kesana, abis dari situ muterin menteng terus muterin Grand Indonesia. Wufff, there are so much tasty food zones i never knew before. abis itu....... ke mana ya hmm oh iye jalan balik wkwk, gue balik ke rumah dianterin sambil ngobrol and then kan gue sampe rmh say thanks, udah deh. huaha at least gue ga stuck di rumah ye kan. bubyeee bloggy, c ya in the next post

TOP FIVE

These are my Top Five something from my perspective

Top 5 bands/singers: (for now)
-Alesana
-Killing Me Inside
-PCD ft. Nicole
-Boys Like Girls
-Attack! Attack!

Top 5 songs for now
-Jem – It’s amazing
-Borris – Why are people running
-Alesana – This is usually the part where people scream
-The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus – Your Guardian Angel
-Kevin Aprilio – Cathy Sharon

Top 5 Outfit Brands
-Topshop
-ZARA
-Mitchybell
-Bloop/Endorse
-Oasis

Top 5 Most Wanted outfits
-tutu skirt &more skirts
-moccasin
-leggings (tights)
-tops
-jackets

Top 5 Favorite Icons
-Alexa Chung
-Cory Kennedy
-Geldof Sisters
-Daisy Lowe
-Agyness Deyn

Top 5 Inspiration
-Cheap Monday
-Lookbook
-Urban Outfitters
-Gogirl! doong.
-Diana Rikasari :p

Top 5 Cartoon Casts
-Jimmy Neutron
-Superheroes by DC Heroes
-Jasmine&Aladdin
-Stitch
-Cookie Monster

Top 5 Colors:
-Fluor Pink
-Fluor Blue
-Black
-Pastel/Pale
-Grey

Top 5 Main Dishes
-Macaroni Cheese
-Steak
-Pizza
-Kangkung tumis
-Capcay

Top 5 Favorite Fruits
-Avocado
-Strawberry
-Papaya
-Kiwi
-Watermelon and I can’t ignore my passion in Pineapple ;ppp

Top 5 Favorite Vegies
-Kang kuuung
-Buncisssss
-Cabbage
-Spinach
-Carrot

Top 5 Favorite Drinks
-Avocado Juice
-Strawberry Juice
-Vanilla Milkshake
-Coffees
-Mixmax huahuah ye ga Mar? GAK DENG DIM. I choose Root Beer

Top 5 Favorite Candies
-Push Pop
-YUPI GUMMY CANDY!
-Hudson’s Honey and Lemon
-Tooties
-Double Bubble

Top 5 Foods:
-Fire Floss (Bread Talk)
-Opera Cake (Cheese Cake Factory)
-Cookies and Cream (Baskin&Robbins)
-Blizzard (Dairy Queen)
-Frozen Yoghurt (Jco/SourSally)


Top 5 gadgets
-iMac
-Sidekick
-SLR D90
-N81, my phoneee ;pp
-maybe blackberry ;)

Top 5 favorite numbers
-8
-12
-7
-53 c:
-9

Top 5 movies:
-Wanted
-Game Plan
-Journey to the centre of the earth
-torque
-night at the museum

Top 5 Local Movies:
-Realita Cinta & Rock&Roll
-Bukan Cinta Biasa
-Best Friend
-dunno
-dunno

Top Five So much love
-God
-Dad
-Momey
-Joan
-Josi

Top 5 more than best friends
-Marsha
-Maya
-Irma
-Tasha
-Tasyalizh

Top 5 best school mates
-Tia
-Vera
-Ayu
-Tiwi
-Moza

µ Top 5 listener
-Bebby
-Tashapl
-Ezzie
-Anitha Mega

Top 5 male
-my Dad
-Dimas
-Pedro
-Rezapotter
-Bernando

Top 5 senior figures
-Kak Ranny
-Kak Pinkey
-Reynata
-Kak Ghaiz
-Kak Nadira

Top 5 Places
-PIM (siempre)
-Lollita’s little café
-Oh La La Bintaro
-My house
-Maya’s and Marsha’s :pp

Top 5 activities
-karting
-skating
-biking
-chatting
-shopping

Top 5 websites
-Facebook

-MSN Messenger
-Blogger
-Twitter
-Plurk

PIM 09

Happy Birthday MAYA!!!!
Wish u all d best and hopes your dreams come true
God bless u and also ur fam ;)

lovee, your friends.



This day is 9th of May, and also the day of Maya's bday.
I went to Marsha's house and wait for Irma. And after that, we three went to Hero to buy something. We caught a taxi and went right away to PIM, there, we met Jete and Cimenk (Irma's and Marsha's), we met Tasha also. So we walked around the mall, to Kansup to 21 and other places. When we were sitting and relaxing in Kansup, down there i met many friends of mine and they also do. We talked and laughed. Jete ate and she smoke *lol* not me loh Dim. And um.... we bought ticket in 21 PIM 1 and met Boncil by a coincidence. long time no see, pal. Then, we watched the movie Bukan Cinta Biasa, seriously it's coooool touchy and so damn funny, and it's recommended. After watching the movie i.................cried i dont know why but maybe i laughed so hard til i cried then, we came to Maya at Pizza Hut he's with Cko and kak Nitya and Rangga, hue. so there, we ate and talked a lot, we laughed so hard til our stomach feels hurt *lol---hyperbole* after eating, we decided to go home at 9.30pm (for about). Irma with her mom, Jete and Cimenk, Cko and kakNitya, Maya Me Tasha and Marsha went home together by taxi, and Rangga just walked together with us to the lobby. I went to Marsha's and waited for my dad. We talked about thingy and my dad picked me up and byeeeeeeeeeeee. I arrive at home in 11 o'clock.

He’s more than just a man, he’s a real gentleman

Thanks for what u’ve done, older.

WANTED, dead or alive

I crave this things very much, dad mommmm buy me some, pleaseeee!!!! *BEG*

1. ………..party foil balloons!? I want them so baaad

2. Jimmy Neutron!!!! tees, action figure or anything! I crave for this stuff since I was in Elementary and never even get one :”(

3. Yupi kingdom ;p yupi gummy candy. As yummy as gummy as creamy as me, give me a loud laughter guys *lol*

4. All candies filled my drawer, from local and abroad, every brands yummmmy ;3

5. New Phone, my N81 is a crank! (comment: rusak parah nyet, udah ga bisa camera, gallery, data suka ilang baru gue pake 2 bln langsung rusak, memory nya asu, skrg udh 1 taun lebih, kuat ye gue tanpa kamera)

6. My own Macbook Pro or iMac yihihi, cmon daaaad mom!

7. SLR D90, crave craveeeee. But maybe D60 is enough

8. I want to have a job, so i work to get some money of mine

9. New outfits dooong :) from top to toes. From tops, pants, skirts, denims, shoes, sandals, slip ons, semi-boots, tights, opaque, stockings, jacket, blazer, necklaces, braces, and every kinds

10. My own (brand) new sleeporoom :d

And I’ll design the interior and everything inside my room

11. More Action figures! *CRAVE* from DC Heroes to Cartoons. Puhleaseee Puhlease puhleaseeee

12. This one known as a dream, Cupcake house -_-

13. Clothing Line and Café. Yep, someday when I grow up, I want to make a clothing line, wif nice prices, not a high ones and own a café HA-HA, I’m a success woman (cheeeese)

14. More money to buy my dad and mom a pent house, and buy Barbies for Josi, and Wardrobe Ready-Set for Joanna :’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’)

15. And more money (again), to buy Dimas an island No—Where-To-Find *laugh: HA-HA*

16. Money again to buy a new house for an orphanage foundation and to be the leader, honestly. I love kids I love babies, I like all of them, the faces the deeds and they’re cute and loved.

17. Muscle car, I dunno why but this car looks good and tough, arrrr.

18. I want to meet my granddad and grandma one more time

19. Lomo, maybe. Hm it’s cute…

20. Fruits Field, strawberry avocado papaya kiwi watermelon babyorange orange lychee pineapple

21. POLAROID………… boom boom boom boom boom.

22. A homey home near Kuta Beach with dadmomjoanjosi nannies dogs.

23. Is it possible to meet the real Santa Claus, because I’m curious here.

24. Bcome wiser, better, taller, smarter, etc also… slimmer (haha as always) *giggles*

25. Brother boy!!!! My mom said she is willing to, but wait until the end of the year mwihi :3

Named him Javiero, moooom. Amen!

26. I always beg for this to Jesus Christ.

Togetherness. With mom dad sister (unending), friends (forever), dimas (present)

I’m so human, that’s why I never feel contented with things I’ve got, human is greedy…

Um, maybe these are my sixteen most wanted, tell me what’s yours?

Pray to have these all, no prob, I’ll beg, pray and of course, I’ll try

Let me pray first, and let this things out. So I won’t feel worried and weary anymore. And so I can move on to the next day without regrets and anger.

Jesus Christ, our Savior, who reigns in heaven and rules in every kingdom up there and here, here I am to bow down, give thanks and ask forgiveness and to ask protection from evil and unwanted things. Thank You, for the blessings you put onto me my family and friends. Thanks for letting me breathe until now. Thanks for the foods the money and the gifts. Thanks for birth and recovery. Thanks for dads moms families friends and loves You give to our life. Thanks for everything i cannot mention here one by one, since You give us lil and massive blessings every single second. Our Father and our Alpha-Omega, we know we’re full of sins and we hardly control our selves, forgive our sins and erase our sins. Help me and my people not to walk in temptation, and help me to do good things to people and of course for Your Name. Bless the sick ones, I know they’ll get better each day, since Your Hands are on them. Bless the poor ones and bless the orphanages and the handicapped, since they’re loved and Your Justice are on them, give them jolly and their daily bread each day. I also believe You in taking care of my loves, God. Every single second, I know You keep Your eyes on me and my family and friends. Fill our days with joy, Your Mercy, Your Love and Glory, Your Wisdom and Your Guidance. Send us your angels to lead us in this weary world. For our parents, bless them so they can be good parents for us and parents we can be proud of, bless their every works also, give them a long-living age and healthiness, thank You. For our brothers sisters, bless them with your loving Hands, take a good care of them in every hot sunny days and hard rainy days. And don’t ever leave them alone. For our whole families, bless all of us, with our daily life, let us lift Your name higher in everything we do. For our friends, lead them to Your mercy and guide them with Your grace. And as we already know, You always be there for the ones whoe have faith, like we have. Thank You Lord, for everything. Also bless our future, our nations, our countries and his world to the next days. And I don’t forget to pray for dimas, thank You Lord, for giving the chance of being with your heavensend, give us Your love and Your strength to keep on living together and being your trustful children. Thank You Lord, this short prayer I seal with Your Name, Amen.

Re--

When I read that old time’s talks, oh my……. I think I’m gonna throw up. I feel sick now, and I lost my appetite. I’m sad and I feel bad. Why everything must be like this? W-H-Y *sigh and taking a deep breathe*

EUREKA!!! I know why, um do you ever feel that life’s never really move on! Never really move on. Maybe you think it’s moving, maybe the time has moved, but do you think your heart, your mind, your life are really moving? Well, I guess no. someone said the show must go on…. Life must go on. It’s not easy, not as easy as ya think. You must have guts to take risks hidden in-front. Just be careful, and pretend that you’re there.

Shitty Saturday

Yoa boy, ask me why I wrote the title Shitty Saturday? Because it’s shitty. Yeah men. Shit-ty. Gini deh my cutie, if I really didn’t want to meet you, I’d rather done my photoshoots with uncle and I wouldn’t lie to my momey and dad, I wouldn’t stay there with lil cupcakes hanging such a kiddie tots. So please believe I didn’t lie to you. OKAY IF YOU STILL DON’T BELIEVE, let me tell you then, I’m tired of being untrustworthy. If you don’t believe me so don’t believe anything I’ve said to you, don’t ever believe lah. If you accuse me like this over and over, sorry to say I don’t want to be somebody else and just find another toy to play on. Sorry if this sounds rude but gue esmosi!? Enough for my scream

Hm I went to Bintaro Plaza the most gaul place in Bintaro lol, I went there to meet someone I rarely meet even if finally I didn’t meet him. I said to momdad that my sister’s pal, Shanice, asked me to join her bday party which held in the Friday before. And Saturday, actually I had to meet my uncle to take photos for something. Since I knew I wanted to meet the someone so I didn’t remind my mom about that. I didn’t understand maybe IM3 got an error connection and I didn’t receive any call from him, even IF he said *I called you many times, 10x times maybe, but you didn’t pick up, and you say that you’ve got no call, I’m not that stupid blablabla* okay…. If I lied, so why 0816122 I mean Indosat Operator sent me message reas like this *You’ve been called by +622173******* Just keep it in your mind and think, guys. When I called this person the man there said *oh Dimas is swimming* ergfff. I was in Marsha’s house near Bintaro Plaza and held a cute lil party in her room, yeah, what party? Animal freaks, oh yeah? Yeah maybe but it was fun and it made me feel okay. HAHAHAHAHA *singing* I’ll keep you my dirty lil secret, don’t tell anyone… AZEK GAK SIH!?@# maximum!!! And (cencored)—we fought (not me and Mar) but me and xx. It’s all about Friendship, Love, and Fight. Oulala bye hotties kiss kiss

lustful and drunk and bored

Hey, bloggy. What r u doin’? I’m typing this sins here. Feel bored and kicked out. Honestly, I hardly think about what I’ve done bad neither not. I’m upset and confused. I don’t like school, I just love the friends. I don’t like mall I just love the fun. I don’t like to eat much nowadays but I like to drink, drink anything what I want to drink lol, believe it or not my serving is 1/3 of my lil sister’s. and I just feel full with that. Even if 1 Bread Talk can give me tummy-comfort. Is there something wrong? I guess no. Ummm… I don’t like to kiss and kissed, but I love hugs. I’d rather smoke shisha than cigars that causes my nose to sneeze and stuck haha what ever. I’d rather drink mixed vodka than a beer since vodka is sweeter, and neither y’all I know it. I’d rather eat cupcakes than drink vodka and smoke shisha, yaiyalaaah apa banget deh lu banyak bullshit net. Enough for my I’d rather. Hm, this morning I haven’t ate my breakfast, I don’t like the foods but I’ll ask my nanny to scramble an egg with chilli and ginseng leaves with chicken nugget or something. And today, unfortunately I don’t go to church because my driver goes to Bogor!!!! ARGH I really want to go to catch a fun with pals because it will be an outbond, shit head. *ANGRYYYYYYYY*. And I expect Dimas won’t call me this day after what happened last day, sorry man.

I’m watching Dora now haha, cute and cute and argh I’m damn confused. SOMETIMES I feel unwanted, I mean I feel I don’t want to meet anybody and I want to be alone with no one beside just me and Jesus, no fam, no friends, no Dimas. But I’ve felt lonely before and I don’t want to be lonesome anymore. Do they give a fuck? Maybe yes maybe no or maybe not anymore. Who knows? HEY HEY this is Avatar the Legend of Aang, lol, I miss it. *singing: Don’t waste your time on me, you’re already the voice inside my head, I miss you….* aha Blink 182 I miss you. It’s pretty cool when someone you love most miss you crazily and it’s well known it makes you feel wanted and loved, and when they just can’t control their selves like UH MAIGAT I MISS HER I MISS HIM. When their Personal Message read like “I miss youuuu so much”, “kangen Janet” or what ever It should be, I know you’ll feel perfect. But just don’t fly too high, when you’re falling, it’s quite hurt to feel anymore, all you want is being numb to all things and you want to go home. Like what I feel just now. Do you understand? Because I don’t know what I’m talking about. I think I’m drunk lol, see…. I’m smarter when I’m drunk ;ppp

Love, me.

W-H-A-T?

Let me ask you some questions okay, your answers must be taken from your perspective

What makes you sad?

When I know I let my parents down and when I accidentally let my fellows down

What makes you cry?

When I can’t bear of feeling worry or something like anger, and when the ones I love just leave me or do something unpleasant

What makes you disappointed?

Ya of course when they let me down

What makes you angry?

When they lie to me and when they keep doing things I hate

What makes you feel spoiled?

When my boyfriend phones me, and when my parents are in the mood to buy some stuff

What hurts the most?

Being cheated on, and left alone, and remember something painful, and when someone you love don’t ever trust you, and when they tell me they feel disappointed. I’ve got a lot

What makes you laugh?

When dimas makes some silly jokes and when I’m with my friends

What makes you smile?

When my people say they love me and miss me esp. dimas

What do you hate?

FAKER

What makes you scared?

I don’t like to see blood and clowns with red nose and powder, ouh shit

What makes you sick?

School and school work

What makes you angry?

A lot of things

What makes you crazy?

Shopping, hm I mean the stuff

What makes you brave?

Family and friends

What makes you alive?

God!

What makes you feel loved?

When they hug me, saying I love you and do cute stuff

What are your must-have items?

Phone with Internet Connection and Wi-Fi, candies, magazines, and skirts

What makes you feel cute?

When they keep looking to my eyes haha

What makes you feel adorable?

When they tell me I’m cute ;pppp

What makes you feel sorry?

When I let them down

What makes you treat them right?

Love

What makes you giggle?

Kids and toddlers, cute ones also Josi

What makes you dance?

Up-beat songs, screamo and night time lullaby

What makes you drunk?
Mineral Water

What makes you feel happy for the first time?

Born

Do you like being in this world?

Yes of course, and I thank God for this

Why?

Because I don’t have the reason to leave this world

So tell me?

I live for His Name, family and friends. Okay, dimas also

Have any last words?

Aha, bye y’akk