He came and made some changes

1. I used to wake up alone, with the alarms ringing out loud. But now he wakes me up with a phonecall each morning

2. I used to cry myself to sleep, but now i pray and smile before i sleep.

3. I used to be unfriendly, but now my heart is filled with joy that i am now smiling a lot, because of you.

4. I used to hate monday, but now i thank every Monday that will surely bring me to Saturday

5. I used to hate myself, for being the most unworthy teenage girl in town. But your presence changed my way of thinking

6. I used to forget anything in a blink, but now i remember A LOT :)

7. I used to be lonely, but now, even when i'm alone i always know that he's always there

8. I used to hate love, but then i just realized that every love has its own good and everyone needs love

9. I used to be anti-social, but ever since you came, i feel better each time i look back to my past :D

10. I used to live in a monochrome TV screen and voiceless. But now, i sing a lot in every colorful day

11. I used to fake a smile to start a day. But now, i smile each time i wake up remembering that i'll spend each day with you

12. I used to be a dreamer, but you woke me up and you keep me up, every single night :)

13. I used to keep questioning about life and world. But now it's all clear that we do need somebody :D

14. I used to walk with my head down. Now with you holding my hand, i keep my head up with a smile on it

15. I used to moan when my heart hurt. Nowadays, i don't have to suffer alone. Your presence means a lot

Somebody, someone like you

I want somebody to love

I want somebody who takes care when i'm sick

I want somebody who smiles at me after he stares

I want somebody who shows the world in a better way

I want somebody who talks wisely when i need to learn more about the world

I want somebody who tell his secrets, the secrets he never shared before

I want somebody who puts me first in everything he does, in everyday

I want somebody who wants me around

I want somebody who drives me home like you

I want somebody who tells me that he loves me, everyday

I want somebody who makes everything feels okay

I want somebody who calls when something seems wrong

I want somebody who tweets something pleasant about me

I want someone like you

apa yang saya ketahui tentang cinta

Sesuai judul, gue mau nulis perspektif gue tentang cinta. Hahahaha hal yang biasanya mendewai hati remaja, disaat sepi galau dan senang.

Sebenernya gue juga kurang bener ngerti, cinta tuh apa. Tapi yang gue tau, itu yang gue rasain. Cinta itu rasa yang ga bisa diatur, dikendaliin sama diberentiin paksa.Cinta itu buatan Yang Agung, untuk dinikmati, dibagi, disebarkan, dan dirasakan. Banyak yang mengataskan nama cinta untuk melakukan hal yang merugikan banyak orang. Tapi gue, gue ngatas namain cinta untuk mencapai apa yang gue mimpiin, hidup bahagia dimasa nya nanti. Gue rasa lo semua juga.

Disini, gue nggak bicara umur. Setiap orang, dengan umur yang berbeda, kapasitas berpikir dan jangkuan pola pikir yang berbeda bisa punya opini yang juga berbeda. Jadi jangan salahin gue, kalo ini ga sejalan sama kalian, karena belom tentu ini sama kaya pikiran kalian. Thanks for ur understanding, anyway

Waktu lo pikir lo jatuh cinta, mungkin lo salah, lo cuma jatuh hati sama seseorang karena parasnya, karena lucunya, karena baiknya, karena lo kangen ada yang meratiin, karena lo capek sendiri, karena duitnya, karena faktor faktor lain yang lo harepin bisa lo dapetin.

Tapi, beda, disaat lo bener-bener yakin itu cinta. Waktu lo bener-bener nggak bisa lepasin ketergantungan mood lo dari dia, waktu lo ga bisa jelasin apa yang lo rasain, waktu lo ga bisa kontrol emosi lo, waktu lo sendiri ngerasa takut kehilangan orang yang bukan milik lo sepenuhnya, waktu lo bisa berpikir tentang hal-hal yang seharusnya belom lo pikirin, waktu lo bisa ngelakuin hal yang lo pikir ga bisa lo lakuin, dan banyak lagi rasa yang aneh yang ga bisa lo jelasin di Twitter ato Blogspot.

Karena ini yang gue rasain sekarang. Seorang cowo yang nyata ada di hidup gue sekarang, yang hampir 1 tahun ngisi hari-hari gua, dan ga ada abisnya gue bicarain.

Gue banyak belajar tentang hal ini. Hahaha hal-hal yang ngebuat gue tersenyum waktu hal-hal konyol ga lagi lucu buat gue. Dan sementara, hal-hal yang biasa bisa ngerusak mood gue dengan gitu jitu nya. Itu yang gue pertanyakan, kenapa cinta segitu mudahnya mengambil bagian penting di hidup gua. Gua ga pernah minta untuk jatuh cinta, tapi nyatanya, inilah gua dengan semua yang bisa gua share. Cinta itu salah satu dari takdir, look beside and see the one you've got that heaven has sent you from above, mereka lah yang dikirim dan digarisini buat ada sama lo sekarang, APAPUN kata orang-orang, entah kalian nggak cocok, dia begini begitu, kalian begini begitu, kalian ga bisa bersatu karena faktor mungkin keluarga. Tapi cinta itu butuh pengorbanan dan bukti. Perjuangin apa yang ada. Lakuin sebisa lo. Sampe dia bisa liat, kalo lo WORTH FIGHTING FOR, kalo lo pantes di perjuangin dan dipertahankan. Siapa bilang cinta itu mudah, cinta datang dengan segenap pertimbangan yang ga lo kira, dan menguras hati dan duit hahahaha. Untungnya gue ga matre -_- hayo yg matre jgn kesindir yaa.

Seandainya nanti "lo" baca, semoga lo bisa rasain yang gue rasain, semoga kita ngerasain hal yang sama, rencana-rencana masa depan kita, rencana-rencana konyol yang kita buat, hahaha semoga ada buktinya.

Dan pesen gue untuk kalian, para remaja haahaah, jangan capek untuk mencintai orang yang ada disamping lo, atau ada jauh di depan sana. Jangan capek untuk ngejar dan nunjukin kalo dia dicintai, setiap harinya. Jangan pernah meminta balik, sebelum lo jadi orang yang patut dicintai :)

10 wishes from thousands

1. I wish i could freeze the time when you're around

2. I wish i could make you stay forever like there was nothing better

3. I wish i could spend a night to sleep beside you on the front seat of your car.

4. I wish you could share your blanket and your bed, we could only lay along time, laugh at each other and rest.

5. I wish i could find a better thing to explain to you. To make this easier for you

6. I wish you'd stay the same, no matter what

7. I wish i could find you a love that lasts.

8. I wish i could make you feel different......

9. I wish you read every tweet i've tweeted for you

10. I wish i knew how to tweet thousands of reason much more better than this......

Fate

Takdir.

Udah takdirnya gue mesti jadi Janet. Takdirnya gue punya bokap nyokap lebay. Takdirnya gue berbadan semok ga kaya Megan Fox. Takdirnya gue begini begitu. And you know what, imma do what i do and WHETHER you like it or not. Ga ada yang bisa rubah gue, apa yang ada di gue, apa yang gue mau dan apa yang hati gue bilang. And what you people need to know, even if i'm not that good girl, i never want to involve anybody, i just wanna be me, namanya juga remaja haaha gue cuma mau nemuin jati diri, sah ilaaah. Bkn masalah bad influence atau apalah itu, tapi masalah gue mau jadi kayak gimana.

Cara main gue yaa biasa, selayaknya 2010 hahaha. Gausah pada muna lah disini. Gue ga risihin lo pada asal kita main fair, gue di ladang gue, lo di ladang lo.

Again and again, takdir, kata nyokap gue, lahir hidup mati udah ada yang atur. Berarti.... apapun yang gue punya sekarang itu juga udah di atur. Apa yang udah gue lewatin juga udah diatur. Gue sama temen-temen gue, udah di atur. Gue sama Devara juga udah diatur dong, orang-orang yang nentang.... ya ngelawan takdir lah itungannya, NO OFFENSE. Gue kaya gini, udah di atur juga, kalo mau rubah gue.... yaa don't mess with me, mess with my Maker. God has done a lot for me, i've done nothing to please Him, i'm just a sinner, but thank for everything God :-)

NO OFFENSE. This post untuk.... ya beberapa orang yang semoga aja suatu saat bisa ngrti. Bye all. Gonna type something here, soon :D

Why so hard to forget

When we sleep like this and when reality can't wake us up
I feel like having the best sleep ever
When i open my eyes and turn around, i see you laying still beside me

When we hug like this, i know that i'm holding someone who's worth fight for
And that's the best part in life that sometimes you don't realize


When we spend our time, singing our song and you playing the guitar
I can't sing but when you're around, i just can....



Remember when we stood in the center of the crowd,
We ignored what they did.....
We ignored what they say


Remember when we drove somewhere, anywhere by your motorcycle
We got no conversation, all we got is silence but with the golden smiles in our faces


Remember those silly faces we captured
Remember those silly moments we've shared together
The times when we laughed at each other
When we couldn't hide how happy we were

So tell me, will you grow old with me?

Reasons why she's worth it

Watch and learn dude.. You know, girls are unreadable, they sometimes hide their feeling to avoid worse conditions. and they often lie to you guys. Like when she says she's okay maybe she's just really not, and hoping that you'd come to her and ask her in a sweeter way i don't know. But if you have someone you love sooo much and you think you've been dong her wrong. Maybe this will help. I hope so.

1. she stayed awake to be someone to talk with while you drove along those empty road at 3 A.M

2. remember how she smiled after you yelled at her with bad words? wasn't she still pretty with the tears on her eyes?

3. she made your life worth while, the fight, the tears, and the violence

4. she keeps being nice, no matter how you've been. even when you cheated behind her back..

5. she cleaned your sweat on the forehead. with her own hand when other girls grinned and said "yuck!!!"

6. she always hug you gently, related to the fact that she doens't want to hurt you

7. she made your sister's English speech note. she made your brother's writing homework

8. she always bear the pain you cause, alone. even though you ever said that she'd never be alone

9. she loves you more every after her downpour tears, when you break your promise

10. and she STAYS the same, even you KEEP breaking her heart. isn't that enough?

11. she wants forever, even she have seen how you worked it out, it's like you don't wanna be forever

12. bcs she never forgets to say goodnight and wishing you a ight sleep

13. she puts you first, all she know is that you're worth it. how about you dude? do you put her first?

14. she dresses like what you've told her to. she changed to what you'd like her to become

15. The last, bcs she completely let you in, FOR FREE. without any terms and conditions.

ADDitional:

16. she has been tweeting a lot about you to make you realize

17. she's been trying too hard to be the best for you

18. she treats you motherly. and if you see, she never makes you feel ignored or something worse

19. she keeps telling you the same thing.

20. she's always there to comfort you, even not for every hour in your day. she's open

21. you're always good in her eyes, no matter how bad you are in other people's sight of seeing.

Once you waste them you'll lose the chance to be the luckiest guy ever.
Think over, dude.