How to give em your best

Hey readers! I’m back and I’ve written something for you to read. Gue bakal share buah pikiran gue tentang gimana untuk nunjukin rasa sayang lo ke pacar or anybody in an unpredictable way… eh nggak unpredictable juga sih, ya maksut gue gimana lo bisa tunjukin kalo lo itu patut dipertahankan, because this things are what I do to make him stay :) sampe sekarang… fortunately, and thank God, gue masih sama Deva. Dan berharap bisa fourever ye huehue. Nah let’s do it.

If you want to be a better lover. You must read this post :P

Untuk ngambil contoh, and to make me speak easier, gue ambil dari gue lagi ya contohnya hehe. Gue punya pacar, hm namanya Devara and sure, I love him. I must be right, you guys have your own special person with your own special treatments. I don’t know whether you guys are kinda ignorant or maybe over-protective. But all those things will help us to see clear that we don’t have to ignore and deny how much we care and we don’t have to dominate their life as if we own them.

Gue sayang sama Devara, dan gue nggak nunjukin itu dengan trick-or-treat disaat-saat yang gak terduga. I mean, waktu lo sayang sama seseorang dan lo pengen mereka liat kalo lo sayang dan peduli sama mereka. Satu hal, yang bener-bener mesti lo tau, jangan pernah melihat suatu hubungan itu diperuntukan untuk sebuah keuntungan besar. Jangan pernah melihat suatu hubungan dari apa yang sudah dan akan lo dapet. Tapi pikirin, apa sih yang bisa lo kasih? Apa yang bisa mereka pertahanin dari lo? Apa aja yang bisa dan udah lo kasih. Itu beban pikiran lo, bukan ngebayangin hal-hal seneng yang bakal dia kasih untuk lo. BUKAN. Is it clear? Enough I guess. Buat gue, pacaran itu gak butuh duit, gak butuh… hm hal-hal complex yang biasa dilakuin sama orang-orang yang lebih tua (baca: diatas remaja). Gue juga nggak pernah ngedewain uang pacar gue, apa yang dia pake, anak nya siapa kek, sekolah mana, bawa mobil apa bawa motor apa cuma sepeda, ganteng apa gak dan sebagainya. Dan you guys have to know, I’ve let him know, gue juga udah bilang sama dia, pokok pikiran gue yang keak gini adanya. Harta dan paras… kalo cuma itu yang lo banggain, kalo cuma itu yang lo cari, here, yang lo cari itu cuma kenikmataan sesaat, cuma legal drugs yang berujung dengan sakit hati. If you guys want to compare yourself, with their ex-girls or ex-boys, ada waktunya, percaya sama gue ngebandingin diri lo sama diri mereka sama aja kea bunuh diri, sama aja ngebunuh percaya diri lo, jangan dikira gue sepik babi aja ya, gue juga pernah kok banding-bandingin diri gue sendiri ke mereka, yang ada, gue ngerasa so faaar from grace, down abis, dan ngerasa gak mampu, padahal what he sees from me, it’s not about what’s better from me tapi something I’ve been searching for a time, and it must be the best.

Attention and Affection!
Perhatian dan kasih sayang. Dua hal yang paling penting, digauli dengan um..komunikasi. Sebagai pacar yang baik, biarpun kere pulsa, ataupun susah diijinin untuk keluar ataupun backstreet dari orang tau ataupun malu-malu dan gengsi. Itu bukan halangan coy. Perhatian itu dalem bentuk apa aja kok, kalo mungkin dari sisi pulsa lo nggak lancar, ngapain gengsi, gue sama Devara ya..jujur aja, for example, dia pake bb gue pake nokia SE ah apapun bukan bb, pulsa internet dia jalan molo, gue enggak, pulsa biasa dia sering stuck, ya sama juga kea gue sering gue pake buat ol biar ujungnya gak ketemu di internet. SO WHAT? Lo jadian bukan untuk tiap jam di smsin kan? Ditanyain udah makan apa belom, lagi dimana, sama siapa, mau ngapain, kangen, sayang, cinta blahblah, ada lo jangan ngarapin dia mesti keak gitu mulu sama lo, bosen juga kali. Mungkin pas awal jadian dia manjain lo dengan beribu sms dalem 1 hari, makin lama makin ngurang, (kalo dia baik-baik), pasti itu bukan karena nyeleweng, tapi bosen gak sih lo denger kata-kata yang sama setiap 3jam sekali? Ato apalah lebih sering dr itu. Kalo lo gak bosen ato ga ada sedikit pun mualnya, gue rasa emang lo careness-maniac. Kalo dia (lo) jarang ketemu, atau susah dapet izin, lo mesti bisa ngerti lah,dia masih di bawah orang tuanya, sama aja keak lo. Tunjukin kalo lo itu gakcuma sayang dan peduli sama dia, tapi juga pengertian. Dan kalo misalnya dia lagi waktunya hang out sama temen-temennya, kenapa lo mesti marah? Temen-temen itu dari mana dia berasal, lo juga gak mau kan di kekang-kekang gitu? Toh kalo lo mau jb lo bisa bilang, dan gue rasa pacar lo jg gak gengsi bawa lo kenalan ke lingkungannya. Back again to perhatian, perhatian itu gak mesti lebay keak “sayang kamu mesti giniginigini aku gakmau tau, aku nggakmau nanti kamu begini, kamu dengerin aku yaa yang, ntar kalo begini, begini begitu lalalala”. Dan perhatian itu tergantung gimana caranya lo liat perlakuan dia ke lo. Gue sekarang juga ngerasa diperhatiin kok, he ban me to do such kind of thing, and I’m trying to do what he want me to do, not to impress him but I just try to make him see that I ain’t a bad one.

Sweet Words last longer and even more (?)
Siapa bilang pacaran mesti aku-kamu? Cinta blablabla semua hal yang berbau romantis? Dari perspective gue, itu tergantung gimana lo berdua ngebawa diri kok. Nggak mesti dengan dinner berdua, live music berdua, ato apalah itu yang berbau romantic jaman kiblik. Gue tipe cewek yang lebih ngeliat ke apa yang gue sama dia suka, titik temunya. Tapi bukan ngeliat apa yang rata-rata cowo /cewe suka. Sweet things may help, tapi they’re not everything. Bisa kok lo awet dengan cara pacaran yang cadas, ya mungkin hobi lo sama, lo berdua sama sama tukang ribut kek apa lah, siapa yang tau. Gue udah senenggg dengan cara gue sama dia ngelampiasin dan nunjukin we love each other, gue juga gak pernah nuntut dia untuk jadi kea gini gitu gini, dan gue juga nggak pernah mau berubah jadi orang lain untuk dia sayangin. Waktu lo sayang sama orang, coba terima dia apa adanya, dengan begitu, lo bakal belajar untuk ngeliat sesuatu dari sisi paling simple bukan dari sisi WAH nya.

NAAH jadi, yang pada pacaran cumin buat keuntungan pribadi semata. Buka mata ya. Kasian tuh orang lo tip uterus kan :) they love you, I know you will do. Semoga kita semua jadi lebih baik dan bijaksana dari kemaren dan sekarang, amieeeeen. Love you guys.

OH Truth! You're hatin on me

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HEH LO LO SEMUA!! GUE LAGI KESEEEL BANGET NIH GAKTAU PMS GAKTAU EMANG BANGKE ARAB GAK TAU EMANG GUE BENCI PERASAAN KAYAK GINI!! HAHUHAHUHAHUHA *ngos-ngosan*.

Hey there my readers. I’m back, dengan sedikit pengendalian emosi, I’m AVATAAAR!! Gak karuan banget gue malem ini:’( Enek dan I feel there’s something unknown that keeps bothering my mind, and I just don’t know what it is. Kalo blogging gue bosen ah cerita tentang hari-hari gue. Follow my latest updates di Twitter aje IYEAH. Twittamaniac!! Sekarang kita omongin tentang satu hal yang paling sulit untuk dicari, lebih dari uang. Kebenaran.

Tau gak lo siapa yang sebenernya korupsi? Tau gak lo sebenernya dia kayak gimana? Tau gak lo kejadian kemaren rekayasa apa bukan? Tau gak lo temen lo itu kayak apa? Tau gak lo lo udah di tipu? Tau gak kalo lo itu cuma bahan permainan?

RARRRRR!! Banyak fakta fakta yang sebenernya bukan “fakta”, Cuma di anggep bener aja karena banyak bukti kuat. Padahal what you see sometimes is not what it seem to be. Dan emang iya kok, manusia itu paling jago buat malsuin diri sendiri? Malsuin duit aja bisa masa duit kagak? Gue kecewa sebenernya kita tuh tukang bohong, dan penuh kemunafikan ya kalo dibilang. Maloeee abieshhh. Cuman kalo di pikir-pikir, selama kita ngga nyakitin orang lain, mungkin itu bakal lebih baik. AAAAH:’’’’( tp gue benci when the truth opens up at a wrong moment!! Sumpah salting banget, gue campur aduk, kesel seneng kecewa lega dll.

“Are u a true friend? In need and in deed? I doubt it. We don’t even know what friendship really means”

AYO KITA MAKAN TEMEN SEBELUM KITA DI MAKAN!!!! AH TAUK AH GUE SPEECHLESS. Cuma ngelantur. Bye nyari topic hidayat….topik hidayah? topik.,.

HARI INI

SHOUT OUT!::: BOSEN!!! TERBAKAR API DUNIAWI!!! uuuuh bete banget bosen di rumah deh gue. Kangen Devara sama Jessica Tasha Maya. MAU KELUAR!!!

apa kata gue

Gue lagi suntuk banget sekarang, bingung aja gitu, kayaknya risih banget pala gue. Suntuk bangedddh bawaannya pengen sama temen-temen aja, sama Devara? Hmm for now, we’re having fun with friends aja dan emang pacaran itu kan buat ngejalanin hidup berdampingan, bukan nya buat mendominasi. (udah dewasa lo net? Sekarang diem) hmmm apa lagi, liburan ini kerja gue belajar pagi dan siangnya gue cabut sampe sore atau sampe malem atau sampe larut malem, tergantung mood. Mulut gue juga keanya belom sembuh sembuh haha aduh sembuh doong:( ye gue tau sih emang habit gue yang fckk banget ini nih yang kurang ajar dan setan banget, what can I do? I’ll muster my best effort then.. liburan ini hampa banget keanya sepi gitu gaktau kenapa, gue sama Tasha ngerasa hal yang sama, gue keak yang…. “Tash bête dah” “Tash suntuk deh” ya respon dia juga sama “iyaya net keanya gini gini aja” YOIH, keanya makin kesini kok makin ngebetein, what’s wrong I don’t even know,

Perasaan gue juga keanya TSSSAH, gak karuan, bener-bener gue nggak ngerti apa yang gue pikirin, gaktau emang gue yang gila apa emang gue terlalu rasional. Contohnya kemaren..gue jalan dari bunderan bintaro sampe rumah maya, jauh emang, mungkin menurut maya gue yang sakit jiwa, tp kemaren kalo ditanya sama Faqih pun emang jujur, JUJUR banget, gue mumet gue pengen sendiri, pengen mikir aja, (bukan sendiri pengen putus dari deva ya), maksut gue sendiri, nggak ada temen, bukan sendiri mau putus lah intinya biar ga salah tafsir. Dan I enjoyed it, gue jalan di sidewalk bintaro yang anginnya lagi ngedukung banget, suara-suara mobil ya asu banget bising, gue malah ngerasa peaceful, kayak apa yeee kea nya sendiri ga ada masalah, free gitu lah noraknya. Di rumah juga apa sih kerjaaan gue sampah bener liburan gini keanya freak abis ngemper di rumah ya tolong, tp atas kesadaran gue masih mau ttp disuruh belajar, OKE MA PA? jadi gak salah dong tp kalo gue sore mau keluar yelahh toh gue masih ngikutin mau mereka kan? BEUGHHHH bête gila kalo masih kena semprot.

What’s visible, what you could possibly see is not the truth. Maksut gue ya apa yang tampak belom tentu sama kea apa yang sebenernya, mata emang bisa nipu kok. Itu dia kurang ajarnya,manusia jadi gampang di tipu ahaha bagian ini yang paling gue gaksuka, dimana lo udah percaya dan lepas tangan karena emang ngerasa everything’s alright dan taunya beda kea apa yang lo perkirain, ELAH BETE NYAAA!! Wuoyyy. Udah deh daaaa

You're special

YouBy: Janet Abigail

“….you don’t have to speak any word!! I rule here. And um…. It’s fun to be like Lily Allen. I’d try to ignore every bad things that come out from some people who are not even better than me. Try it! You’ll be more confident. You’re not them. They’re not you. You’re different. Live your life”

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart ad intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” –Steve Jobs!!!

He’s absolutely right! You have your rights. So why do you have to live your life depending on other people’s rules? Other people’s suckish talks? Hey, believe me, if they call you naughty, dirty, bitchy, just because of your poverty, your style of talking, and the way you act. I guess they don’t even know you more deeper than your closest buddies. Behind my back, in-front of me either, there’re a lot of people sayin’ something I wish I’d never hear, my bad habits, or anything related to it, they keep mocking and talking BLABLABLA, but I’ve always wondered, ALWAYS, are those people better than me? Are those people loved? For God’s sakes, they are big-mouthed. I hate when people start to lose their mind and become uncontrollable to others, like they rule those innocent people’s life. What d hell are ya thinking? I never get in to something I don’t know well, even my best friend’s life, maybe I COULD give em suggestion, but not trying to change them from what they’ve BECOME, what they’ve CHOSEN to live this life. I’ll keep em away from falling, but not trying to brainwash them.

Just think, WHAT IF, they’re sick of what you’ve done? Shut up and think!!

Adult and kids are the same. We still need those people to become better, but keep them away from your zone.

My friend, Anggo, he said “Life is about choices.”

Guess he’s right.

O’ I almost forgot, there’s an excuse for people who don’t treasure their own life. They ruin their life by destructing their-selves with unimportant things. And… people who don’t respect other people’s right, other people’s choice, other people’s life. They’re not my type.

Hell what they say

Kecewa banget. Itu yang gue rasain. Mereka disupport sementara gue mesti kehenti sampe sini, gue ikutin semua mau mereka!! GILA mesti sampe kapan gue turutin, gue juga udah punya kemauan gue punya pilihan gue sendiri, terima ajalah, gue sama lo juuga nggak sama, beda pendapat, tapi pernah mau cari titik temu nggak lo? Nggak kan. Lo nyuruh gue mundur? Wets gue 3 hari nggak di rumah capek-capek ya, buat dapetin itu. Gue sekarang lagi megang tanggung jawab, kenapa lo gakbisa support gue? Bukannya lo pengen liat gue bahagia? Pengen liat gue seneng? Kenapa malah lo neken? Yaudah deh kalo emang lo mau gue lega, lo kasih gue space, lepasin gue. Jangan cari gue aja, lo juga nggak mau ngurus gue kan? Cuma mau untungnya aja? Gue tau semuanya emang yang terbaik buat gue, tapi kalo nggak sejalan, apa mesti gue forsir buat ikutin? Gue capek gini terus, mesti speak up mulu sama lo, kenapa nggak pernah bisa ngerti.

<3 ,you?

someday i will prove it to you. i am strong enough to enjoy this pain you gave
what will it takes to make you come back?
is it wrong to force you?
the days i spent
the life i walked through
are now going empty

the boy i think i know
is now changing
the young man i usually stared at
is now going away

no need to cry
i'm not that shy
no need to share
this pain i can't bare

enough on hurting
you turned on lying
enough on fighting
i turn on giving in

if i were to talk
i will say
i--love--you
it i knew the reason

i will be sorry
i will be guilty
don't turn your back
don't add your steps

look in my eyes if you dare
learn about me more
sure! you will understand
i try that hard to hold on

Confession of a broken heart

when you need something

when you want to do something

when you like something

when you love someone

when you are left behind

when you get hurt

when you can't reach what you want

when you are behated

when someone call you bitch

when you are scared

when you are crying

when you are alone

when you failed

when you lost someone

broken heart can't mend their self

but if love fills it

no one could deny, it is fix!

so when will my broken heart fixed?

who knew?

waiting for something uncertain

hey i'm waiting for your message
.........your call, ck wanted!

something bother my vision
i dreamt that you were missing
when i woke up
i finally realize that i was lost
from long time ago

i'll be there for you

this promises are not made up

i'll wait for you

this time is running to catch you

you said love
you say hate
you said hello dear
you say bye biatj

that night i slept in your car
i laid my head at your shoulder
you whispered i love you
but now it's just echoing as a memory

the things you have said to me
is now ruined
there's no certainty
i wait here by my side

a little smile curved in my face
just to cool down those fire in my head
maybe i am loved
or maybe i am not

give your answer
just through a whiper
and give me a walk to remember
i hope we can be forever..........................

smile like that

smile like that, the way you smile makes me smile
as you smile, i already knew
you're just covering your lies up
but i really can't deny your sparkling eyes

the night we're together
is now the pain i couldn't bare
so you need to play fair
because there's no need to share

your smile is the most wanted
most wanted things
i've ever needed to see
i love you and i mean it

with this words
do you know how much i miss you?
this memories are getting older
i want to turn back time if i can
love, janet

about being unwanted:'(

the place where we usually together
is getting colder
the topic that we talked about
is fading now
i don't know why
i dont't know how

i just learn to take it all back
when i came home last night
my phone was ringing
but i chose not to pick it up
i guessed it was not you
and i know t'was true
seems like you ever care about me

all of your messages
are getting deeper inside my heart
your voice
is echoing inside my ear
i think about our remember-whens
and i know it won't come back
then, my shoulder you lay on
is know just a memorable organ of my body
it just left a little smile for you
miss, janet