Friday, June 25, 2010

A post from all teens

Teenagers.

young. self-inquiry. urban nite life. midnight-dawn walk. dance floor. new friend. sexy chicks. hot hunks.
nice car. liquor shots. cigarette burn. money. branded clothes. cool style. popularity. school tasks. college.
teenage-fights
love story
.future.
.and stuffs.

Been hearing all of these for times. Yes. Since then, things written above sound usual. But for some people, some of them are still surprising. And it's weird when a girl is often judged bitchy or naughty because of her sense of style, wearing mini skirts or showing too much skin. And i'm too dead bored listening to all bullshits that old people often say.

It's not fair, when someone gets ignored or excommunicated since they're having not a good behavior, their way of talking and their way of associating is considered wrong or crossing the limit.

::Sementara menurut gue apapun yang kita lakuin, emang keputusan dan suara hati paling keras lah yang menang. Mbak Tika bilang apapun yang kita lakuin itu dipertanggungjawabin sama Yang Di Atas, bukan hukuman dari masyarakat sekitar ato relasi2 terdekat. Senakal apa remaja, sesembrono apa remaja, semena-mena apa remaja, segimana pun mereka....

Gue remaja, gue growing up! Gue cari jati diri gue, yaa bukan bentukan orang tua gue. Mereka punya mau dan mimpi, tapi menurut gue, setiap individu punya minat dan tujuan hidup nya masing-masing. Dan seringkali orang tua (saking lebay sayangnya) ga bisa SADAR dan ga RELA kalo anaknya ternyata udah besar dan butuh space untuk privacy nya. *No offense*. In the end, semuanya bkl ada di tangan kita, apapun yang kita pilih pasti punya resiko sama konsekuensi, tugas para petua.. adalah menasehati, memberi buah pikiran, mendukung dan mendoakan yang terbaik. Bukan memaksa. Masalah future, sukses apa engga, jodoh, seneng apa engga. Who knows. Bedanya, jodoh itu masalah hati yang ditakdirin. Hahaha.. Apapun nantinya gue, gue berharap semua yang terbaik, ini 2010, mungkin di 2020 nanti gue bkl lebih dr ini, atau mungkin masih begini. Ya berdoa aja semuanya bakal lebih asik.

Sekarang, gue bersyukur dengan temen2 gue, lingkungan gue sama hmmm pacar gue hahahaa..
Nilai gue bagus biarpun ada bbrp hal yg blm bs gue capai dan bbrp mslh yg blm gue dpt titik temunya.

Dan semoga semakin gue dewasa, biarpun hidup tambah keras, tp semoga gue makin lihai ngejalaninnya. Ikhlas, tabah dan orang-orang penting ini bakal selalu ada disamping gue. AAAA lega yaudah deh byee

Monday, June 21, 2010

Uncertainty and this world


Well, i hate to post this. Pdhl gw belom smpt ngepost ttg surprise nya dvr.

Uncertainty. Google it yourself, haha ga deng. Ketidakpastian.

It kills you slowly while you're holding on.
It makes you think twice to spend forever loving them
It scares you, all the time.

Ngedenger hal itu, ngebuat gue mikir terus, think over and over. Will this lasts? Will you make it? Will we survive? God! This thought is killing me. High school is getting closer each day, gue takut semuanya berubah...... Berubah jauh dari ini. Gue tau persis yg gue rasain disini, bukan "rasa saat ini" tapi "rasa yang ngga pernah berubah".


If "you" read this, if you want to know, i'm scared of everything. Now. I'm like going blind. I can't see what's ahead and i can't seem to take the risk for more. I'm scared of goodbyes and broken-heart.

This world is cruel.
I have promised you smthg, but for some reason, gue ga bs tepatin. And well, it's not my fault. Jump to another case, let's kill the old time, this is 2010! I'm not a little girl anymore.

This world is cruel.
This post is true.


Sunday, June 13, 2010

The truth is...


And i want to hear this, someday:

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Vierra - Bersamamu (Covering 4 Dvr's bday)

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Video ini direcord tepat hari ini, siang ini.
.9 Juni '10.

Gue udh coba ngupload di FB dr jam 4 sore, berkali-kali tp failed mulu, sampe akhirnya gue beralih ke Blog hehee.. mayan lah:P

Gue dateng siang-siang naik motor ke sektor 4, smntr rumah gue di Serpong Bintaro. Gue sampe masuk angin bray -_- makasih untuk Anisa Destina yang udh ngijinin gue buat ngerekam video di kamarnya, dan Nadia Maulida yang udah mau beberapa kali ngulang take lagu ini.

Video cover ini emg ga perfect dan bagus-bagus banget, tapi yang penting kan niat nya. Suara gue adanya segitu sih wakakaak. Bayangin gue setia online drtd cm buat ngupload ini tepat di tgl 9 Juni 10. Kegagalan yg gue dpt, dr failed, disconnected and so on emg jengkelin bgt. Tp usaha gue ga mungkin stop!

Devara mungkin belom liat semua greetings, semua video dan semua hal-hal yg gue blow up ke dunia maya. Tapi yaa at least, dia bkl tau belakangan, as a surprise. Bsk dia bakal pulang dr Singapore, jam 10 malem +/- sampe disini. I hope everything's fine and i'll see him soon. VERY soon =)

Ok, tgl 9 hampir berakhir, last, happy birthday Devara! Wish u all the best
-Labrador 479

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Because no matter what happens, i'll always be there for you
No matter what lies ahead, i'll stay the same
No matter how old we'd get in time, i'll still love you
No matter how ugly the truth is going to be, i'll always be yours
No matter what people say, i'll still believe in fate
No matter how bad our days are, i'll still be your mood-booster

I'll be 24-hours available

When you need affection and attention
When you need a listener and a crying shoulder

As long as you want me to...

You're older now, and i wish you all the very best
Have a nice ride. Enjoy your life
Treasure each moment you spend with your family, friends and me =)

Night



Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Old dude Dev

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEV!!!!

Akhirnya, gue udah ngantuk2 nunggu jam 12, sempet juga :D:D
Semoga lo terhibur sama video2 dibawah ya, and i've text u ke hp mama mu.
Good night ya! Love u

Happy Birthday my Devara II

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This is another video :P
For you, Devara Putra Aryasta!
Gue ga tau ngontact lo lewat mana :( nelfon ke mama mu ga enak, tp hp km mati. Bbm kak cal juga mati

I hope you'll like this video, pig! I've made 3 videos for you. Hope you'll love it


Happy Birthday my Devara :D

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Hey goodnight everybody! I made this video just a moment ago from my sister's blackberry!!

Well, sbnrnya Devara bsk ultah nya 9 Juni!!! Tp yah gapapa lah, dia di spore, gue mau jadi yg "kecepetan" ngucapin hoho. Cepet pulang ya dev, aku kangen sama kamu bgt :-(

I LOVE YOU Dev, 4ever 7o9ether!!!!


Monday, June 7, 2010

The strongest element in the world




Hey everybody! I spent my day in kak iren's house.. with fira riri bebby and kak ami.. What i'm going to write here is not quite different from my older posts.. I talked a lot, i shared a lot about my lovelife with kak ami and return, she shared so much about hers. And i was surprised and i found that we have a lot of similarity.. we're as tough as weak as everything we are. Okay lah let's start.

Gue sama Kak Ami kan curhat2, sementara kak Iren bobo, Fira di dalem futu2 hahaha tulul. So i was there when she told how she fought the pain she never thought she'd get.. Dan ternyata banyak kesamaan yang gue temuin. kita sama-sama pernah rasain sakit dan ga enak nya di boongin, dimana posisinya ga ada yg bisa dilakuin lagi.

You know why i titled this post "The strongest element in the world"?
If you see, the brain takes control of everything inside of our body, even the beat of our heart. When your heart falls in love, then it can be made sure that your brain will lose its authority to take control of your heart..

Otak bisa buat bibir lo boong, tapi otak ga akan pernah bisa buat hati lo berpurapura ato boong.

Org2 bisa maksa lo utk ngelakuin hal yg lo lakuin, mungkin when your argument's weaker and you lose, lo ngelakuin jg ga tulus. Contoh gampang bukan. Sama kayak waktu pilihan lo dlm hal apapun ga disetujui sama orang tua, yg seharusnya mensupport lo dan bisa jd temen. NO OFFENSE ya. something happened to me. yak lanjut, gue cerita banyak sama kak ami gitu kan, and we stated something, quite rash maybe but it sounded true..

When you love someone, truly, you won't be able to hurt them in return even if they have hurt you so badly. AND you'll find it easier to hurt yourself. Yaa seenggaknya ini yg pernah gue rasa

Begitu kuat nya elemen ini sampe kadang hal-hal kecil pun bisa merubah hidup lo.
Segitu kuatnya cinta, sampe bisa ngebuat lo berani ngadepin apa yang ada di dpn buat perjuangin apa yang mau lo pertahanin.
Segitu berartinya cinta, sampe orang2 munafik yang jijik membaca blog gua pun di dalem lubuk hatinya masih bisa bilang "ini bullshit" tp tetep ngerasain hal yang sama hahahaah, let's try.. Ga bkl jauh2 dr sini. God made it so strong! God modified love with some kind of ultra-dynamic-monstrous-feeling.. Awsum!!! Okay2. I can't deny!

And when you fall in love, no matter what people say, no matter what your brain tries to convince you about, no matter what your parents say, no matter how painful the path you choose is, you'll be as strong as how God has made love to fill humanity with everything cheerful, enchanting and wonderful. Love is not useless.



Thank You, Lord. for showing the way to find love
Friends and family, i know you guys have been in love before, and i hopelessly try to ask for SUPPORT, i don't wanna be pressured anymore. Thank you.

(This bride was praying, hoping that everything would be alright and her marriage would last forever. As how every girlfriend wants to have the best things in their lovelife with no one annoys)

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Happy 11th Month, Dev

Today's 4th of June and this is the day when we finally reached our 11th month

Happy 11th month, Dev!

Thank you for:
  • Making me feel loved
  • Doing silly things to make me laugh
  • Staring me dead in the eyes to make me smile
  • Always make me feel right
  • Making me feel wrong and leaving a lot to learn
  • Telling things that every girl would love to hear
  • Showing new things in such a rocking way
  • Calling me your wife
  • All the pain you've helped me to bear
  • All the sweet times you've let me in
  • All the rides
  • All the sleepless nights
  • All the hard nights you've spent thinking to relieve my pain

  • All the mornings
  • Cheering me up in such a funny way
  • Giving a lot to memorize
  • Making me strong enough to walk through everything
  • Holding my hand when i'm scared
  • ...being a lot like me =)
  • Getting along with all my life.
Thank you, you make this all worth the fighting, the waiting, and the price i pay is worth the memories

Sorry for:
  • The times i turned my back on you
  • The mess i made that let you down
  • Words i haven't said to you
  • Things i've done to you
  • Things i haven't done to you
  • All the wrongs i made
  • The hells i've put you through
  • The song i haven't sung to you yet
  • Being imperfect for every situation
  • Making some situations harder for you
  • The pain i made
  • The things i shouldn't say to you
  • The time you spent trying to be a better man
  • All the times you spent driving me home
  • Not being there when you need me mostly
  • ...making you feel bad when i should've been your mood-maker
  • Sorry for doing things i shouldn't do

Awet ya Devo! Me love u!!! <3

Memilih

"Banyak pilihan dalem hidup, tapi apapun yang udah lo pilih, itulah yang takdir mau."

Waktu lo milih jalan buat ngeraih mimpi-mimpi lo, pasti lo bakal ikhlas buat jalanin, bakal enjoy jalanin pilihan lo itu. Beda waktu orang deket lo maksa-maksa buat milih yang bukan pilihan lo. Ngejalaninnya juga pasti bakal beda. Setengah hati. Mungkin lo ikhlas, but you're going to realize then, i'm taking the risk that should've not found here, and i didn't want this. I don't want this. I hate this, or stuffs like that.. 2 hal yg sering dipusingin, hidup sm lagi-lagi cinta, hahaa as always. IF you could find anything beside those two things, i'd be happy to know..

......Hidup.......
Banyak jalan menuju Roma, tp cuma beberapa jalan yang selamat ye.. Hahaha jayush. Banyak hal yg mesti di pilih, tapi emang makin kesini, makin tua, lo mesti bisa milih dan belajar tanggung jawab sama pilihan lo. Lo juga mesti bs perhitungin apa yg hrs lo lakuin apa yg engga. Belajar memilih ya....belajar

.....Cinta....12345
Banyak jalan untuk menemukan cinta. Tp pilihan itu cuma ada 1.. Hahaha ya buat gue, kl buat player-player di luar sana sih pilihan itu disaring segimanapun tetep ujungnya banyak. Gakdeng, org2 blg NO, tp hati lo!!! Hati lo ngerasain.

Udah ah bete gue, dilema asli.Byee

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

The start of June 2010

(I captured this pic from http://www.cameroid.com and posed sweetly :P)

Hey, it's the 1st day in June. And let's start this month with a good praying!!!
Semoga dibulan ini, semuanya jadi lebih baik ya, begitu juga semoga insipirasi blogging gue kenceng ahahaha. Semoga kalian dpt semua yg terbaik, dan makin sering visit kesini.

Everything will be fine and gets better in time. I'll be the same through the time, my Devara!!
Be a good friend. Be a good girlfriend. Be a good stranger. But this is all i am as a DAUGHTER. Like it or not, this is Janet Abigail.

"I always wonder why love makes us stronger even it's the same place it makes us dying. And i always wonder why can't old people see what teenage love looks like, how does it feel, and why can't we leave it. Please, someone's gotta expound a lot of these. Fate has chosen its plot, and i hope this was forever. I always hope for the best and afraid of losing what i've got is always haunting. There's a lot of you who wouldn't know me, that much. And i hope that this will help. I'm pretty bad at English, i don't understand grammar LOL. I'm good at loving and being a good friend. But it depends on YOU. It's a pretty fun thing to share my time with my boyfriend and friends. I don't really enjoy being at home, that's what my dad and mom should have known. I'm a teen who's growing up, waaay older.

And i've learned about being in a relationship, having someone you'd like to keep forever, staying up late thinking about old days and tomorrows, laughing about something silly, dreaming about someone each and every day, falling in love with the same person each day, losing your arguments and statements, and well, a lot of things are hard to explain. It's like the entire world changes differently and you can do nothing, you can't help. Memories keeping you holding on. I've been in love for 11 months with a guy named Devara. Wish me a long-lasting relationship!! This 4th of June, we'll be having our 11th month. Oh almost forgot, my NEM for the National Examination was 36,75 and i'd like to enroll in 70 SHS. Wish me all the best, readers

When it's boring i'll be trying to find an escape, maybe watching movies and day-dreaming LOL
When i'm not in the mood, i'll be spamming Twitter timeline, as always!(‎​◦ˇ зˇ)

That's all for today, have a nice June